12 1/2 Weeks

When I get the pictures off my camera (probably tonight), I will send an update of what my belly looks like. Can't really tell anything yet when I have clothes on but it kind of looks a little like maybe I ate too much. I have noticed that just in the past week, I can't suck it in as much as I've always been able to. There's just a little round area that won't go in. So I guess that's the baby. Maybe no one really cares about whether I have a baby bump yet but I know that when my friends were pregnant, their bellies fascinated me. I tried not to let on but am not really good at faking. My first friend who had a baby never sent me a single picture of herself pregnant, even though I asked for them. I'm sure it's just because it wasn't really that huge a deal, I really hope it wasn't because she felt badly about her baby belly. I never had the guts to ask her. Since I was around My Friend The MD a lot when she was pregnant, I never had to ask for a picture and she even let me touch the belly on occasion. I think that for me, it's visual proof that there is a living being inside there and it makes it more real. It's very hard for me to really "feel pregnant" when I don't really look much different. But anyway, you can go back to my first post and compare my body at 5 weeks with my body at 12 1/2 weeks. Some of the change I think is just flab since I have been so tired over the past few weeks I have done very little exercise.