I know "shock and awe" is usually reserved for bad things like war. But it is really the best way to describe how I felt after that little line appeared on the pregnancy test-- both of them. I remember last year when a really close friend of mine told me she was pregnant. I was thrilled, ecstatic for her. She was obviously happy but looked-- uncomfortable. I never understood that (and of course, never outright told her until recently). Now, I totally get it. My husband (to be known from here forward as VH) and I were actually at her house when we found out. She administered my first pregnancy test, since she had some laying around from the clinic she works at. She and her husband were incredibly excited. VH and I were both, well, stunned. We called our parents. The best I could do with my mom, the first to find out (of course), was "I think I might be pregnant. Or at least, that's what the test says." I wasn't joking. That was really how it felt.
It wasn't like we hadn't planned for this. We've been together for 8 years. We had decided, consciously, that we were ready a few months ago. We had always known that we wanted children and were very open about it. We had been taking steps to be stable in our lives-- resist the temptation to switch jobs, looking to buy a house finally (see future posts on that). But there are just so many questions running through my mind, not knowing what to expect. The first few nights, I hardly slept at all. Now I am sleeping but waking up a lot and having weird dreams. What will I do about maternity leave? I don't get any paid time off for maternity through work, and no short-term disability. How will we pay for childcare? Will I be able to find an OB practice that I like?
All of these things will fall into place, I know. Since the beginning of time, women have been having happy, healthy babies. I'm not the first nor will I be the last. My life changed entirely on January 18th. And will change even more on or around September 24th. I just can't believe it's finally happening for me!
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A log of the next 34 weeks of my life-- the rest of my pregnancy.
About Me
- Pete
- Despite the nickname, I am in fact a girl. I recently found out that I am pregnant, and am dealing with all of the emotions, challenges, and joys that go along with it!
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oh my god!!! your brother sucks at telling me stuff, apparently... congratulations to you guys!!!!
ReplyDeletekeep avoiding that morning sickness! ...and welcome to insomnia, we have really crappy TV here.
Well, it's pretty early yet and we are not broadcasting it really-- haven't told at work yet. So don't be too hard on the bro.
ReplyDeleteBTW-- how did you find this? I was trying to be stealth because I don't want work to find out just yet. Guess I didn't do such a good job.
Thanks for the congrats. It's good to know people on the west coast, so when I am awake at 2 AM, you're still awake to chat!
Joe sent it to me in a chat assuming he had already told me... i was a little surprised when i clicked on the link, at first i was like, ok, there's another girl whose nickname is Pete... and then the link actually clicked for me. :)
ReplyDeleteSo i think you should still be safe at work...
Nice surprise. I've thought about doing that as just a way to tell people. It would be fun!
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